Expectation is the root of all heartache.

Judgemental. Is there any more terms to bring down people? Why is today's society so cruel. We get judge for almost everything. Results, looks, weight, height, character, people and the list goes on and on. The worse someone could be judge at is the stream they are studying in. Why must we be classified? People contradicts themselves when they say everyone is equal, if so, then why are we placed at different level? Do you still remember when we were in primary school, we had to go through the streaming year to determine if we will be studying in EM1/2/3? EM1 for those, apparently, smart people and EM2, for the average joes while the EM3, lol i can't even bring myself to explain it. True enough, different streams doesn't mean different aim but can you imagine how a young innocent kid felt when they were placed in a lower level than their friends?

In secondary school, we have different streams too. Special, Express, Normal Academic and Normal Technical. LOL, what? Did i just see a "Special Stream"? LOL, what so special about them? Because they scored 270 for their PSLE? Pft. Many a time, the N(A) and N(T) student receives lots of criticisms that they can't make it and a bunch of rotten apples. To summarise it, often looked down at. You might argue that it's always the Normal streams students whom are feeling inferior and paranoid but can you swear on your mum that you really did see them as same level as those in the Express stream? You dont. People often are stereo typical. The world is just so unfair, i'm a N(A) student and i felt so regretful that i didn't managed to go Express, why do i think this way? Because i was brought up knowing that Express students are always the best. What a world i'm living in!!

Are you happy?

Sorry for not updating this blog for such a long time! I just dont have the motivation to blog, perhaps i am just too tired. Not that mentally tired, it's my body which is really feeling the heat. LOL. So why am i here today? Recently, i finally realised how much my friends meant to me or rather how much i meant to them.

P/s: I'm not directing this to anyone. Don't judge me.

I really starts to wonder if my friends are my friends. Something is just not right and i've no idea what it is. I literally felt that the friends i hang out with are just people that i talk to only in school and most are just hi-bye friends. None i could share my feelings to, perhaps a few but i don't even know if they talk behind my back. I have to make sure i don't say anything wrongly or someone will be piss, this shows that it's ain't a friendship. Isn't friends are for playing and fooling around? Isn't that what friends are for? If one day you realised you have to please your friends in order to maintain a friendship, that's when you know you don't mean anything to them and this friendship is just purely a title, nothing worth to brag or treasure about. Btw, i repeat i'm not directing this to anyone, it's just my thoughts. To be depressed is to be lonely, to be with friends is to be happy, what an irony. I felt like i'm just an outcast. LOL, not that i'm facing a friendship problem, just that i've to say all this out to make me feels better. Also, i don't have the cheek to say that i'm a great friend but at least i won't fake a smile and put up a facade and act as if i'm good to a certain person yet backstab him/her at the same time. No i'm not, if you are, you're just a fucking hypocrite. You don't have to bring down others to be closer with your friends. At the end of the day, what i really wish is just having a bunch of good buddies that i could hang out with and chill out. What will the world be if there are lesser hypocrites and fake people? Life might be better. 

I am who I am. Period.

YES YOU ARE RIGHT! That's me when i was 1. When i can still use the word purity to describe me. LOL. So you might wonder why did i upload this photo for my post right? Haha, it's because i had ran of ideas on what to post anymore so i thought i could do some faqs about myself? LOL, i know i might not interest you but sorry, I'M SO GONNA CONTINUE IT.

(P.s, look at my darkcircles, it's been there since 1, not much i could do about it, 15 years pass by and it's still the same. LOL!)

Name:

Mak Yao Quan, Melvin. Don't ask why but there's a comma in my name idk why too. My chinese name is also so unique that i doubt you can read it! 麦尧铨. Fyi it's being read as mai4 yao2 quan2. 

Nickname(s):

Tons of it but i think the more prominent ones are melbin or meowbin or whatever it is la. Aiya.

Age:

I'm 16 and i can't wait to escape from the term 'minors'.

Birthday:

Hi i was born on 30th May 1996. I don't demand presents but thank you very much if you happens to decide on giving me one.

Birthplace/Current Location:

In my entire life, at least till this very moment, i'm living in Singapore and always stuck at this tiny Jurong. I wish i could migrate to London in the future though.

Where do you study at?

I was from Rulang Primary School and currently studying at Yuan Ching Secondary School.

Height/Weight:

LOL idk my current height but i think it's about 176/7 and i'm 56kg. I hope i'm still growing. :/

Religion:

I think my parents are buddism and i think i'm a freethinker. LOL, actually i've no idea too.

Eye/Hair Colour:

Dark brown? I think so. LOL.....

Siblings:

I have an elder sister. She's 20 this year. LOLLL

Hobby:

I love football, regardless if i'm watching or playing i just love it to a extent that i could...... idk, no words i could use for it. Aiya, sorry my "word bank book" literally empty. ~.~

Music:

I don't understand why people sees me as a kpopboy, LOL NO. I listen to all types of music. Not that i know music but i just enjoy exposing myself to different genre of music. I love sad ballads. LOL~

Favourite Quote(s):

Football wise, it's by the great Bill Shankly, 'Some people believe football is a matter of life and death, I am very disappointed with that attitude. I can assure you it is much, much more important than that.'

Life wise, 'Why should I care what other people think about me? I am who I am & who I wanna be.' by Avril Lavigne. LOL RANDOM!
 
The thing i must do when going out:
My hair must be styled no matter where i go, it's just that my hair looks terrible when not styled so yeah it's a must. I'm super vain.


Aiyoo, i'm so lazy to continue so i shall stop here! If you wanna know me more, just add me up on facebook, follow me on twitter or whatsoever. Stay tune for next post! BYE! :D

Love of mine, someday you will die.

YAY! I'm back to blogging. It has been quite a while since my last post........ Btw, school has been very bitchy towards me. :( As usual my hair get caught. It's so irritating that i couldn't form any sentence to describe it hence, i have decided to use some gif to summarise the whole thing.

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It was a peaceful morning...........

Suddenly, the school DM told the school, "Form teachers please check on your student's attire and grooming.". with that short tongue accent, duh.

LOL, i was like, WHUT THE FUCK.

like this.

and while i was trying to hide from Mr Tham(FT).

LOL GODDAMNIT, I'm so unlucky and it was like, "Melvin come out." lol.................................

"You know why i call you out right? Your front too long, touching your eyebrows."

and i was like

LOL, nvm... then he look behind and said, "your behind also touching the collar and very thick too."

and then i was like.

I literally felt like shit cuz i l cut it short so i wont get caught and in the end, shit always happens.

The worse thing is, "cut it by tomorrow." 

LOLOLOLOL IN THE END I WENT BERSERK

LOLOLOL, funny sia i keep laughing. :$ but then i still went to cut my fringe and it look like shit now. :( The back of my hair even got cut by the school's DM. Sigh, sad life. :( This encounter taught me something though, you all must follow this if you don't wanna suffer the same fate as i do.

"Do not cut your hair over the holidays and only cut it after the first day of school, when the teacher caught you. They just wanna see the 'drastic' differences."

Okay la, quite a bullshit post, will try to do some decent entry on my new post alright? See ya babe! :DDD