Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right.

It's the last day of 2012, it's been a year filled with joys and sadness. A heck of a rollercoaster ride i should say. I actually felt that i'd grew into a better and much more mature person(boy). There are really too many things that happened this year and it'll be literally impossible for me to list it all out. Overall, i just think that i gain more than i lost this year. Damn, idk how to say it but yeah, it's been a fairly great year. I genuinely hope that 2013 would be a new start for me and things would go smoother and better than the previous years. Although i know resolutions don't work all the time, i will still like to list it out to act as a reminder/motivation. LOL

In the year 2013 i hope,
- I won't procrastinate my year away.
- Get a decent O's result.
- Appealing to ITE be successful(LOL if this work, the 2nd resolution WILL BE redundant.)
- Be a better and useful person.

Actually, that's it, i don't ask much right? May you guys have a happy new year! Hopefully a memorable and great one ahead!

Every story has an end and every end has a new beginning.

I realised i didn't post any entry for Christmas, i used to do it every year. Although it's super lame and my post will go, "hohohohoho, merry christmas!" but i never fail to at least post something up. So this year's Christmas was kinda awkward, hmm so i went to my grandmother's house for a pre-x'mas party and it was so saddening that my grandmother took like 5mins to remember who i was. So as you know i feel awkward for 80% of my lifetime so it's pretty understandable that i felt super awkward for the whole time during the party. And on x'mas day itself, i actually celebrated with my mates at Darren Ang's house. It was super pathetic and we didn't have any logcakes or turkey..... We had pizza as a substitute though hahaha, had a fairly great time, at least the same few buddies were there, everything seemed more worthwhile and enjoyable when the the people you like are there.

I noticed whenever i tries to blog about my life, everything seem so summarized and briefed. Sigh, i bet it's super boring but it's okay, at least you read till this sentence HAHA. 4 more days before 2012 come to an end, pls go out there and enjoy cuz you can never have 2012 back again. LOL idk what i talking gagagaga BYE.

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.

I got back my results. I was overjoyed and surprised that i passed my maths, i did it, i finally did it. There's even something better, i passed my science and that means i passed all my subjects. These are the subjects that i didn't even think i would pass, not even in my dreams. With these, i passed my N levels. I'm promoted to Sec5 but here comes the big question, 'am i really ready for it?', a normal human being that knows me would tell me NO but do i reallly have a choice? I didn't qualify for Higher Nitec since i got a grade 5 for maths and to qualify i need a 4. So near yet so far, i thought i did enough, but in the end not good enough. I finally passed my maths but it comes to nothing. If i don't go sec5 what's left is Nitec. I wonders if it's right to go there, not that it's a stigma to the society or what but is that what i really want? Study hard to try pass but end up in Nitec again. Pftt, my life is fucked and complicated. How? I don't have a single clue.

People always say a teacher will affect our future and yes i agree with it. I'm really lucky to have met many good teachers just that i didn't appreciate it. Sigh. One of the best teachers i won't forget is Ms Leron. She's really very caring and will never give up on us. If she did give up on me 2 years back, i doubt i will be here today. A good teacher can inspire hope, ignite the imagination, and instill a love of learning. When i saw the statuses she posted, i really felt touched. I mean she's just a teacher and i didn't expect her to put in so much efforts and feeling into us. Hey Ms Leron, the fact is 'Thank you for being in our class. Thank you for letting yourself to be into our lives. Thank you for being you.' I don't think i will forget you haahaha, not in the near future!

When I count my blessings at Christmas, I think of friends like you guys.

As days to result are getting lesser, it's literally means that i'm inching closer to the day i separate with my secondary school friends. You might think i'm exaggerating things but the fact that i'm used to seeing them for almost everyday, being in my life for 4 years and suddenly learnt that things are gonna change soon and that i won't be living the life i've already used to for almost half a decade, it really saddens me. Don't you? I know i can still meet up with them later on but really, how many can admit we actually did? 1year, 2years and if you're really someone who values friendship a whole lot, alright let's say 3 years, sooner or later we're all still bound to drift since the number of times you see your friends will get lesser as years goes by. Therefore, i dedicate this post to my best mates i met throughout the journey in yuan ching.

I met many friends, but there is one who was very close to me. He's Dhinesh, he is really someone i could share my feelings and never ending rants to. Although you might be superb irritating at times but i really like your honest and bubbly character. I really miss the times we walked home together everyday, doing stupid things on the way, playing football, having training and studying together. Although we have since drifted quite alot however i know the relationship we have will last till eternity!

And ofcuz i didn't forget my 4 years sitting partner, Darren Lye. I know i'm definitely not the 'best' you can confide to whenever you have problems but i'm really glad you're still willing to be my friend. He might look fierce on the outside but inside him, he is really a great guy and a good friend. As long as you treat him good, he will do the same to you too. You might be  super bastard at times and we will insult you for nothing but inside me i actually enjoyed your fuckedupness. Well, like my guilty pleasure hahaha. I won't forget the times we trained hard for sports day and the boy who sits beside me regardless in class or parade square. I hope we would still be friends in the future!

The rich boy in action right now. The legendary bermuda triangle baby, Darren Ang. You're like the visual of our clique. LOL, if you happens to read this, i'm really sorry for being such a pest to you. Really sorry for provoking, irritate and harass you for nothing. To me, you're really a interesting friend and i really hope you will live you life better. I will miss the times i spent with you and irritate you. Oh and also, move on boy, it's been a long time alrd. Please don't forget me! We ain't sprinter, we're just a normal dude that runs fast!! Hahaha.

How can i not include you right? Jiaxiang, such a funny and cute dude. I seldom see such a dedicated guy who supports Chelsea as much as i do but you are! HAHAHAA, hi are you reading this? I'm really glad that i met you and although we're no longer as close as we used to but i guess we didn't really drift right?(If that makes any sense.) You're someone i could be retarded and comfortable with. Forever so friendly~ Hope we will still stay in contact in the future! KTBFFH!

Here comes the 2 pioneer boys, Liangjun and Yongle. Although we're not so close but i really treat you guys as important people in my heart. Liangjun, you're forever so friendly and i really can laugh all day long with all your stupid cold jokes. And yes, you're the best sportsman in our school! As for Yongle, if you're reading this, i hope you will remember me as the hardcore chelsea fan and hope we can still play more football in the future! May Arsenal prosper! Hehehe.

Oh before i forget, Haressh and Mathan! Don't forget i'm an Indian and i really really genuinely love you two, seriously love. Please don't forget me cuz i will miss us having fun and being gay in school. :) Let's play some football soon okay? I really dk what to say to you guys but i really love you two, literally, as brothers.

So many boys, it's time to talk about girls!! :p It's her, Zoe! I rmb i met you on my first day in yuanching and you was my sitting partner for a term. We can quarrel everyday and i will scold you for nothing while you will scratch me like mad. I rmb i once lied to you that my mum was very angry about it and the fear in yours eyes were priceless! HAHAHA, we had lots of fun when we sat together and you've really changed for the better! All the best for your future and pls rmb me and stay in contact aye! FuckTard Island!!!!

Another one is this stupid, Wenxin.Although we aren't really super close but i rmb we talked everyday on msn till 5am during holidays and you'll complain to me with all your grandmother stories! Haha, i bet you've forgotten all these! I also scolded you for having a pair of fat legs when we was in sec1/2 and you cried really hard... Sorry wenxin, i was really immature at that point of time! Hope you will rmb me and another thing, i really like your fashion sense!! :P

Oh ya, Jasmine and Liqi. As for Jasmine, do you still remember we talked on whatsapp everyday when you was having some of your worst days ever? I hope i was helpful to you and pls don't forget me and stay in contact aye? I hope you will also treat yourself better(if you know what i meant). :) And hi Liqi, you this cb pls be smarter and stop getting hurt by all those jerks out there. Cuz YOLO, be happy! :)) Many more i wished i could say to you two, but i really can't think of any right now!

Lastly, it's Qiwen, hahaha short short one for you la! Although we barely met each other or rather i doubt we ever met before, you're really a caring and fun text buddy. Stay in contact aye! Hahhahaa twinnie! :pp

That's it. :) All the best guys...

Try and fail, but don't fail to try.

I've always thought failure of achieving something will result in letting people around me down, but recently i realised that i'm actually letting myself down instead. My N's results are to be release next Monday and i'm kinda having mixed emotions to it. On one hand i'm excited to know what grades did i get and which path i could choose for my post-secondary life however, on the other hand i know that i didn't do the best i could for the papers and what's worse is that i felt like i flunked my papers and the thought of me failing makes me really really depressed and sad... Yeap, i know it's not the time to regret and there's really no one i can blame except myself right? Not enough efforts, not enough determinations, i deserve to fail. It's just like Deja Vu, i didn't do well for my PSLE, i didn't met the expectations people had on me and i end up in N(A) and well, i'm not saying that it's not good but if only i did better, i wouldn't be so bothered about this now.. I think it's just part of me, just one phrase to describe me, under-performing dude. All i can do now is to pray and hope for miracle, i don't ask for much, just a pass will do.

So since the night is still young, i've decided to cotinue my vlog which was halfway done. Stay tune okie peeps! Visit my youtube channel at HERE

Just how many times do i have to fail in order to taste a tinge of success?

Just fyi, i stared at this screen for 30minuteS because i'm stuck on what to update.

So it's already December which means that 2012 is coming to an end. I know we say this almost every year._. but don't you think time has been especially fast this year? LOLOL, yeap sounds so cliche but one year just gonna pass by us like this.. I really wish i didn't spent 2012 like how i did. I wasted my time doing nothing. If only i studied harder, do more practical activities perhaps life would be so much better now and i wouldn't be sitting here feeling so uneasy, fretful, afraid, bothered and worry for my results. Guess it's too late to whine here but i really really genuinely hope that i could get a decent result and then spend 2013 in a more productive way. Hahaha. Please!! 

AND BTW, IF YOU DIDN'T NOTICE, I RECENTLY CREATED A NEW YOUTUBE CHANNEL!!

So i did my first ever vlog at there, if you have a youtube channel, please subscribe to me okie! Click Here To My Channel, AND HIT THE SUBSCRIBE BUTTON. So i assume you did what i told you so THANK YOU SO MUCH! Hahaha and here's my video. Hope you would view it too and i shall end here cuz this entry is getting ridiculous. HAH.

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