Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right.

It's the last day of 2012, it's been a year filled with joys and sadness. A heck of a rollercoaster ride i should say. I actually felt that i'd grew into a better and much more mature person(boy). There are really too many things that happened this year and it'll be literally impossible for me to list it all out. Overall, i just think that i gain more than i lost this year. Damn, idk how to say it but yeah, it's been a fairly great year. I genuinely hope that 2013 would be a new start for me and things would go smoother and better than the previous years. Although i know resolutions don't work all the time, i will still like to list it out to act as a reminder/motivation. LOL

In the year 2013 i hope,
- I won't procrastinate my year away.
- Get a decent O's result.
- Appealing to ITE be successful(LOL if this work, the 2nd resolution WILL BE redundant.)
- Be a better and useful person.

Actually, that's it, i don't ask much right? May you guys have a happy new year! Hopefully a memorable and great one ahead!

Every story has an end and every end has a new beginning.

I realised i didn't post any entry for Christmas, i used to do it every year. Although it's super lame and my post will go, "hohohohoho, merry christmas!" but i never fail to at least post something up. So this year's Christmas was kinda awkward, hmm so i went to my grandmother's house for a pre-x'mas party and it was so saddening that my grandmother took like 5mins to remember who i was. So as you know i feel awkward for 80% of my lifetime so it's pretty understandable that i felt super awkward for the whole time during the party. And on x'mas day itself, i actually celebrated with my mates at Darren Ang's house. It was super pathetic and we didn't have any logcakes or turkey..... We had pizza as a substitute though hahaha, had a fairly great time, at least the same few buddies were there, everything seemed more worthwhile and enjoyable when the the people you like are there.

I noticed whenever i tries to blog about my life, everything seem so summarized and briefed. Sigh, i bet it's super boring but it's okay, at least you read till this sentence HAHA. 4 more days before 2012 come to an end, pls go out there and enjoy cuz you can never have 2012 back again. LOL idk what i talking gagagaga BYE.

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.

I got back my results. I was overjoyed and surprised that i passed my maths, i did it, i finally did it. There's even something better, i passed my science and that means i passed all my subjects. These are the subjects that i didn't even think i would pass, not even in my dreams. With these, i passed my N levels. I'm promoted to Sec5 but here comes the big question, 'am i really ready for it?', a normal human being that knows me would tell me NO but do i reallly have a choice? I didn't qualify for Higher Nitec since i got a grade 5 for maths and to qualify i need a 4. So near yet so far, i thought i did enough, but in the end not good enough. I finally passed my maths but it comes to nothing. If i don't go sec5 what's left is Nitec. I wonders if it's right to go there, not that it's a stigma to the society or what but is that what i really want? Study hard to try pass but end up in Nitec again. Pftt, my life is fucked and complicated. How? I don't have a single clue.

People always say a teacher will affect our future and yes i agree with it. I'm really lucky to have met many good teachers just that i didn't appreciate it. Sigh. One of the best teachers i won't forget is Ms Leron. She's really very caring and will never give up on us. If she did give up on me 2 years back, i doubt i will be here today. A good teacher can inspire hope, ignite the imagination, and instill a love of learning. When i saw the statuses she posted, i really felt touched. I mean she's just a teacher and i didn't expect her to put in so much efforts and feeling into us. Hey Ms Leron, the fact is 'Thank you for being in our class. Thank you for letting yourself to be into our lives. Thank you for being you.' I don't think i will forget you haahaha, not in the near future!

When I count my blessings at Christmas, I think of friends like you guys.

As days to result are getting lesser, it's literally means that i'm inching closer to the day i separate with my secondary school friends. You might think i'm exaggerating things but the fact that i'm used to seeing them for almost everyday, being in my life for 4 years and suddenly learnt that things are gonna change soon and that i won't be living the life i've already used to for almost half a decade, it really saddens me. Don't you? I know i can still meet up with them later on but really, how many can admit we actually did? 1year, 2years and if you're really someone who values friendship a whole lot, alright let's say 3 years, sooner or later we're all still bound to drift since the number of times you see your friends will get lesser as years goes by. Therefore, i dedicate this post to my best mates i met throughout the journey in yuan ching.

I met many friends, but there is one who was very close to me. He's Dhinesh, he is really someone i could share my feelings and never ending rants to. Although you might be superb irritating at times but i really like your honest and bubbly character. I really miss the times we walked home together everyday, doing stupid things on the way, playing football, having training and studying together. Although we have since drifted quite alot however i know the relationship we have will last till eternity!

And ofcuz i didn't forget my 4 years sitting partner, Darren Lye. I know i'm definitely not the 'best' you can confide to whenever you have problems but i'm really glad you're still willing to be my friend. He might look fierce on the outside but inside him, he is really a great guy and a good friend. As long as you treat him good, he will do the same to you too. You might be  super bastard at times and we will insult you for nothing but inside me i actually enjoyed your fuckedupness. Well, like my guilty pleasure hahaha. I won't forget the times we trained hard for sports day and the boy who sits beside me regardless in class or parade square. I hope we would still be friends in the future!

The rich boy in action right now. The legendary bermuda triangle baby, Darren Ang. You're like the visual of our clique. LOL, if you happens to read this, i'm really sorry for being such a pest to you. Really sorry for provoking, irritate and harass you for nothing. To me, you're really a interesting friend and i really hope you will live you life better. I will miss the times i spent with you and irritate you. Oh and also, move on boy, it's been a long time alrd. Please don't forget me! We ain't sprinter, we're just a normal dude that runs fast!! Hahaha.

How can i not include you right? Jiaxiang, such a funny and cute dude. I seldom see such a dedicated guy who supports Chelsea as much as i do but you are! HAHAHAA, hi are you reading this? I'm really glad that i met you and although we're no longer as close as we used to but i guess we didn't really drift right?(If that makes any sense.) You're someone i could be retarded and comfortable with. Forever so friendly~ Hope we will still stay in contact in the future! KTBFFH!

Here comes the 2 pioneer boys, Liangjun and Yongle. Although we're not so close but i really treat you guys as important people in my heart. Liangjun, you're forever so friendly and i really can laugh all day long with all your stupid cold jokes. And yes, you're the best sportsman in our school! As for Yongle, if you're reading this, i hope you will remember me as the hardcore chelsea fan and hope we can still play more football in the future! May Arsenal prosper! Hehehe.

Oh before i forget, Haressh and Mathan! Don't forget i'm an Indian and i really really genuinely love you two, seriously love. Please don't forget me cuz i will miss us having fun and being gay in school. :) Let's play some football soon okay? I really dk what to say to you guys but i really love you two, literally, as brothers.

So many boys, it's time to talk about girls!! :p It's her, Zoe! I rmb i met you on my first day in yuanching and you was my sitting partner for a term. We can quarrel everyday and i will scold you for nothing while you will scratch me like mad. I rmb i once lied to you that my mum was very angry about it and the fear in yours eyes were priceless! HAHAHA, we had lots of fun when we sat together and you've really changed for the better! All the best for your future and pls rmb me and stay in contact aye! FuckTard Island!!!!

Another one is this stupid, Wenxin.Although we aren't really super close but i rmb we talked everyday on msn till 5am during holidays and you'll complain to me with all your grandmother stories! Haha, i bet you've forgotten all these! I also scolded you for having a pair of fat legs when we was in sec1/2 and you cried really hard... Sorry wenxin, i was really immature at that point of time! Hope you will rmb me and another thing, i really like your fashion sense!! :P

Oh ya, Jasmine and Liqi. As for Jasmine, do you still remember we talked on whatsapp everyday when you was having some of your worst days ever? I hope i was helpful to you and pls don't forget me and stay in contact aye? I hope you will also treat yourself better(if you know what i meant). :) And hi Liqi, you this cb pls be smarter and stop getting hurt by all those jerks out there. Cuz YOLO, be happy! :)) Many more i wished i could say to you two, but i really can't think of any right now!

Lastly, it's Qiwen, hahaha short short one for you la! Although we barely met each other or rather i doubt we ever met before, you're really a caring and fun text buddy. Stay in contact aye! Hahhahaa twinnie! :pp

That's it. :) All the best guys...

Try and fail, but don't fail to try.

I've always thought failure of achieving something will result in letting people around me down, but recently i realised that i'm actually letting myself down instead. My N's results are to be release next Monday and i'm kinda having mixed emotions to it. On one hand i'm excited to know what grades did i get and which path i could choose for my post-secondary life however, on the other hand i know that i didn't do the best i could for the papers and what's worse is that i felt like i flunked my papers and the thought of me failing makes me really really depressed and sad... Yeap, i know it's not the time to regret and there's really no one i can blame except myself right? Not enough efforts, not enough determinations, i deserve to fail. It's just like Deja Vu, i didn't do well for my PSLE, i didn't met the expectations people had on me and i end up in N(A) and well, i'm not saying that it's not good but if only i did better, i wouldn't be so bothered about this now.. I think it's just part of me, just one phrase to describe me, under-performing dude. All i can do now is to pray and hope for miracle, i don't ask for much, just a pass will do.

So since the night is still young, i've decided to cotinue my vlog which was halfway done. Stay tune okie peeps! Visit my youtube channel at HERE

Just how many times do i have to fail in order to taste a tinge of success?

Just fyi, i stared at this screen for 30minuteS because i'm stuck on what to update.

So it's already December which means that 2012 is coming to an end. I know we say this almost every year._. but don't you think time has been especially fast this year? LOLOL, yeap sounds so cliche but one year just gonna pass by us like this.. I really wish i didn't spent 2012 like how i did. I wasted my time doing nothing. If only i studied harder, do more practical activities perhaps life would be so much better now and i wouldn't be sitting here feeling so uneasy, fretful, afraid, bothered and worry for my results. Guess it's too late to whine here but i really really genuinely hope that i could get a decent result and then spend 2013 in a more productive way. Hahaha. Please!! 

AND BTW, IF YOU DIDN'T NOTICE, I RECENTLY CREATED A NEW YOUTUBE CHANNEL!!

So i did my first ever vlog at there, if you have a youtube channel, please subscribe to me okie! Click Here To My Channel, AND HIT THE SUBSCRIBE BUTTON. So i assume you did what i told you so THANK YOU SO MUCH! Hahaha and here's my video. Hope you would view it too and i shall end here cuz this entry is getting ridiculous. HAH.

- WTF IGNORE THE WERID UNGLAM THUMBNAIL LOL -

Fits in like it was meant to be.

HEY IT'S 5AM AND WHY AM I DOING HERE!!!????? Apparently my 'sleepless night' button was triggered by some asshole out there............... Since i can't sleep i shall update this lifeless, soulless, dead blog! Why not? :D Btw, i realised whenever i want to blog, my mind will be totally blank and when i'm lazy, so many ideas and inspirations. So how??? I really want to blog but my mind now is totally blank.............

OKAY I'M GOING TO BLOG ABOUT MY HOLIDAY JOB

So if you've been wondering what have i been doing during the holidays, i'm actually busy working, earning hard-earned cash. :( I work for average 8-12+hours per day. Although it's really really tiring, but i enjoyed the process while working with my colleagues. It didn't happen for my previous job at pepper lunch. Perhaps it's because i have DarrenS and co. around this time but really, i met better people at my current workplace. LOLOL fuckedup i realised i can no longer type in proper english and form a proper sentence........................................ omfg this is so depressing.... OH YA, i forgot to tell you that i'm actually working at Hyatt as an all-rounder(literally). I do everything. There will be times i will have to go outside like the Irish Embassy to host a buffet event or stuck in the hotel during weddings or such. I actually became stronger after working HAHA. So moral of this post, i'm loving my job HOWEVER i'm feelling really tired already. I might decide to quit or continue even if the school term starts. It all depends on my result.. So yeah, i will elaborate more about my job when i leave Hyatt so this shall be a brief introduction(i insist) of my job. Seeya! Stay tune, i promise i will produce better material in the future(and also improve my typing tsktsk must be lack of practice since i no longer have the time to use the computer for long.) KEKE BYE

If you walk away, i would fade.

I came across this gif a few months back and it really triggered my feelings, i mean it gave me lots to think about. Especially my family. What if one day my parents are longer with me? We often forget that as we grow, our parents grow too.

The older we get, the more desires we have and we come to a point that we can do anything in order to achieve it, and in the process, hurting our parents. I don't know if it happens to anyone but it happened to me. I hated how my mother gave me so little freedom even though i'm already 16 but i overlooked the fact that i will always be the only little small kid in her eyes and what she did was just trying to 'protect' me, well it might sounds so corny but yes, it really was. I remembered i told my mother that i hated her so much and i never really treat her as my mum. Okay wtf, i know i'm stupid and fuckedup but i was really sorry and felt so fucking regretful after that incident. I really didn't mean what i said but i know my mother understands it to so yay! OKAY SO moral of the story, don't take your parents for granted cuz one day they will no longer be on our side and we will be left all alone to face this cruel society. Just imagine life now without your mum. It would be so terrible. Make them happy and proud while you still can. Life's short, live it worthwhile. This does not apply only to your parents, your siblings and your love ones too ya' know? Alright, i know my story is no big deal as compared to other worser cases out there but i genuinely wanted to share this to everyone. Main point is, don't let the moment of rashness makes you regret for the rest of your life. We only live once, so do our parents.

EH, i suddenly feels that the whole chunk of shit i typed didn't link much to the gif leh, like 40% only.......... but it's true okie.. See you when i see you, stay tune! Bye~

Nothing is ever really lost to us as long as we remember it.

Sometimes we just reached to a point that we had no choice but to move on in life. Yes, as true as it may sounds, we can't stick to a certain place forever. We do what we supposed to and then get outta of there. So i finally survived through the end of my seconday school life in yuan ching. Yeah, nothing is confirm as i might just pop out again as a Sec5 student but i already know where i would be heading to be honest.

Ah! the irony, i actually miss yuan ching alot. So much memories to hold on to, so many people to hold on to. First day in yuan ching as a freshman still stays vividly in my mind. The oversea camp at Tj Piai when i was in sec2 still remains as one of the best camp i ever went to. The day i finally stopped being retarded, literally, when i was in sec3. The final weeks before N's as a sec4 student. I've no idea that i will be as emotional as i would but i really felt sad as i typed this sentence.

I grew up in this school, i spent half of my teenage years at there, i met my best friends there, i encounter the best teachers there. Just hope that the school will continue to improve and prosper. Anyw, goodluck to peeps whom are taking O's! Never do what you can, always do you best. Only the best can bring you results. I shall elaborate more about my life next time cuz i really really really genuinely lazy to continue. Oh, if you wondered why the photo above, it's just me growing over the years. :P

I shall start posting about my friends soon. Ending of this with a picture of my mates.
(LOL Photos are all ripped off from instagram, btw follow me at @melvinmakXP)

Happy Cow.

HI I'M SUPPOSE TO BLOG TODAY BUT NO, SORRY I CAN'T. HAVING N'S RIGHT NOW! I WILL BE BACK ONCE IT'S OVER! STAY TUNED PEEPS.

Expectation is the root of all heartache.

Judgemental. Is there any more terms to bring down people? Why is today's society so cruel. We get judge for almost everything. Results, looks, weight, height, character, people and the list goes on and on. The worse someone could be judge at is the stream they are studying in. Why must we be classified? People contradicts themselves when they say everyone is equal, if so, then why are we placed at different level? Do you still remember when we were in primary school, we had to go through the streaming year to determine if we will be studying in EM1/2/3? EM1 for those, apparently, smart people and EM2, for the average joes while the EM3, lol i can't even bring myself to explain it. True enough, different streams doesn't mean different aim but can you imagine how a young innocent kid felt when they were placed in a lower level than their friends?

In secondary school, we have different streams too. Special, Express, Normal Academic and Normal Technical. LOL, what? Did i just see a "Special Stream"? LOL, what so special about them? Because they scored 270 for their PSLE? Pft. Many a time, the N(A) and N(T) student receives lots of criticisms that they can't make it and a bunch of rotten apples. To summarise it, often looked down at. You might argue that it's always the Normal streams students whom are feeling inferior and paranoid but can you swear on your mum that you really did see them as same level as those in the Express stream? You dont. People often are stereo typical. The world is just so unfair, i'm a N(A) student and i felt so regretful that i didn't managed to go Express, why do i think this way? Because i was brought up knowing that Express students are always the best. What a world i'm living in!!

Are you happy?

Sorry for not updating this blog for such a long time! I just dont have the motivation to blog, perhaps i am just too tired. Not that mentally tired, it's my body which is really feeling the heat. LOL. So why am i here today? Recently, i finally realised how much my friends meant to me or rather how much i meant to them.

P/s: I'm not directing this to anyone. Don't judge me.

I really starts to wonder if my friends are my friends. Something is just not right and i've no idea what it is. I literally felt that the friends i hang out with are just people that i talk to only in school and most are just hi-bye friends. None i could share my feelings to, perhaps a few but i don't even know if they talk behind my back. I have to make sure i don't say anything wrongly or someone will be piss, this shows that it's ain't a friendship. Isn't friends are for playing and fooling around? Isn't that what friends are for? If one day you realised you have to please your friends in order to maintain a friendship, that's when you know you don't mean anything to them and this friendship is just purely a title, nothing worth to brag or treasure about. Btw, i repeat i'm not directing this to anyone, it's just my thoughts. To be depressed is to be lonely, to be with friends is to be happy, what an irony. I felt like i'm just an outcast. LOL, not that i'm facing a friendship problem, just that i've to say all this out to make me feels better. Also, i don't have the cheek to say that i'm a great friend but at least i won't fake a smile and put up a facade and act as if i'm good to a certain person yet backstab him/her at the same time. No i'm not, if you are, you're just a fucking hypocrite. You don't have to bring down others to be closer with your friends. At the end of the day, what i really wish is just having a bunch of good buddies that i could hang out with and chill out. What will the world be if there are lesser hypocrites and fake people? Life might be better. 

I am who I am. Period.

YES YOU ARE RIGHT! That's me when i was 1. When i can still use the word purity to describe me. LOL. So you might wonder why did i upload this photo for my post right? Haha, it's because i had ran of ideas on what to post anymore so i thought i could do some faqs about myself? LOL, i know i might not interest you but sorry, I'M SO GONNA CONTINUE IT.

(P.s, look at my darkcircles, it's been there since 1, not much i could do about it, 15 years pass by and it's still the same. LOL!)

Name:

Mak Yao Quan, Melvin. Don't ask why but there's a comma in my name idk why too. My chinese name is also so unique that i doubt you can read it! 麦尧铨. Fyi it's being read as mai4 yao2 quan2. 

Nickname(s):

Tons of it but i think the more prominent ones are melbin or meowbin or whatever it is la. Aiya.

Age:

I'm 16 and i can't wait to escape from the term 'minors'.

Birthday:

Hi i was born on 30th May 1996. I don't demand presents but thank you very much if you happens to decide on giving me one.

Birthplace/Current Location:

In my entire life, at least till this very moment, i'm living in Singapore and always stuck at this tiny Jurong. I wish i could migrate to London in the future though.

Where do you study at?

I was from Rulang Primary School and currently studying at Yuan Ching Secondary School.

Height/Weight:

LOL idk my current height but i think it's about 176/7 and i'm 56kg. I hope i'm still growing. :/

Religion:

I think my parents are buddism and i think i'm a freethinker. LOL, actually i've no idea too.

Eye/Hair Colour:

Dark brown? I think so. LOL.....

Siblings:

I have an elder sister. She's 20 this year. LOLLL

Hobby:

I love football, regardless if i'm watching or playing i just love it to a extent that i could...... idk, no words i could use for it. Aiya, sorry my "word bank book" literally empty. ~.~

Music:

I don't understand why people sees me as a kpopboy, LOL NO. I listen to all types of music. Not that i know music but i just enjoy exposing myself to different genre of music. I love sad ballads. LOL~

Favourite Quote(s):

Football wise, it's by the great Bill Shankly, 'Some people believe football is a matter of life and death, I am very disappointed with that attitude. I can assure you it is much, much more important than that.'

Life wise, 'Why should I care what other people think about me? I am who I am & who I wanna be.' by Avril Lavigne. LOL RANDOM!
 
The thing i must do when going out:
My hair must be styled no matter where i go, it's just that my hair looks terrible when not styled so yeah it's a must. I'm super vain.


Aiyoo, i'm so lazy to continue so i shall stop here! If you wanna know me more, just add me up on facebook, follow me on twitter or whatsoever. Stay tune for next post! BYE! :D

Love of mine, someday you will die.

YAY! I'm back to blogging. It has been quite a while since my last post........ Btw, school has been very bitchy towards me. :( As usual my hair get caught. It's so irritating that i couldn't form any sentence to describe it hence, i have decided to use some gif to summarise the whole thing.

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It was a peaceful morning...........

Suddenly, the school DM told the school, "Form teachers please check on your student's attire and grooming.". with that short tongue accent, duh.

LOL, i was like, WHUT THE FUCK.

like this.

and while i was trying to hide from Mr Tham(FT).

LOL GODDAMNIT, I'm so unlucky and it was like, "Melvin come out." lol.................................

"You know why i call you out right? Your front too long, touching your eyebrows."

and i was like

LOL, nvm... then he look behind and said, "your behind also touching the collar and very thick too."

and then i was like.

I literally felt like shit cuz i l cut it short so i wont get caught and in the end, shit always happens.

The worse thing is, "cut it by tomorrow." 

LOLOLOLOL IN THE END I WENT BERSERK

LOLOLOL, funny sia i keep laughing. :$ but then i still went to cut my fringe and it look like shit now. :( The back of my hair even got cut by the school's DM. Sigh, sad life. :( This encounter taught me something though, you all must follow this if you don't wanna suffer the same fate as i do.

"Do not cut your hair over the holidays and only cut it after the first day of school, when the teacher caught you. They just wanna see the 'drastic' differences."

Okay la, quite a bullshit post, will try to do some decent entry on my new post alright? See ya babe! :DDD

The choice i made yesterday was the reason for who i am today.

Hey people,

FYI

I'm not dead yet! Sorry for not updating this little blog for so long! I was so busy trying to complete my coursework and when i'm home, i'm dead tired.

Spare me a thought! I love you readers!

Don't ever leave me cuz i'll be sad.

:(

I WILL UPDATE SOON! PERHAPS OVER THE WEEKENDS! YAY! 

Do you think time would pass me by?

Hey fellow homosapiens, back to blogging now! I didn't blog yesterday because i was so tired and my mind wasn't functioning the right way so i decided not to post any crap. I will do my last day challenge below, do check it out.

Btw, today's topic is, "One Person You Can Trust.".

To be honest, i really wonder if i can trust anyone around me. It's not like i'm being a bastard for not believing in people but it's just that the world is so complicated right now and i actually pondered if the people around me are real. It's sort of like, when you're outside, you're living for yourself.

Still, i believe, hopefully i can trust on is

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Dhinesh isnotDhinesh

Yeah, it's him. Although for some reasons, we drifted so much.............. but i still believe if i have anything to share, he will be the first to know. I shared lots of memories with him and it's really so much so that it's impossible for me to blog it out. I just wanna say that i'm so glad to found a friend like him. I wanna thank him for everthing. He is facing some relationship problem right now and i hope he read this, You can’t lose what you never had. You can’t keep what’s not yours. And you can’t hold on to something that doesn’t want to stay. Time will be the best medicine for you, just move on and live on like the Dhinesh i always knew. Sigh, i don't think he will ever read this but it's okay. :')

So here you go, the person i can trust. Don't get misunderstood by this post, i still trust people, but to a certain extent. Some i can really trust, some are just a time bomb ready to explode. 

My clique consists of a huge number of people but how many can i trust? 2, 3? LOL... School is starting in like 2 days time, and here's a gif for my dearest school,

Stay tune for more excitement, hehe bye!

A thousand lies has made me colder.

Heard that the TJCC football team won their last match 9-0 and will be contesting in the Finals this Friday! Although i'm not in the team anymore, but i don't think it will make any differences cuz i think i'm not even needed! Okay lah, i not so positive. Obviously i feel a little gutted but too bad, things just don't go my way. All the best and good luck, i think they are a great team filled with wonderful players!!

I shall continue with my days challenge since i'm left with 2 days! 

Today's topic is... "Two Things You Wish You Could Do!"

yay! lol....

Lot of things that i wanna try doing but for some reasons, i don't have the chance to~ Sad life i'm leading. :( Le sigh..

I wish i could,

Sing & Rap!

This may sound embarrassing but i think i should not hide this cruel truth. I can never sing on tune.. LOL. First of all, i think that my sound sounds like crap and there's something wrong with my throat and diaphragm...... For the rap part, i can't catch the beat.... :( Aiya i very pathetic sia.

Travel to London

The main reason for me to go there is because of my dream. I wanna visit Stamford Bridge which is apparently located in London. So what's Stamford Bridge, you might wonder. Basically it's a stadium and Chelsea FC is the tenant. :$ My life aim is to watch Chelsea play live and i swear by hook or by crook i must go there when i grow up! Another reason is cuz, i want to learn British accent. :X

So here you go!

I think it's quite lame :X but it's okay ~.~

Btw, i was thinking of what should i do when i grow up and i finally came to a conclusion that............... i wanna be a motion graphic designer. LOL, i know it's kinda random but people that don't know me, i'm actually super interested in film making/video production! So yeah, i think it will be so great if i could do something i love in the future!! Hehehe. 

Before i end off the entry, gonna show you how i always dance at home!

 ~.~

 Body wave~~~~ lol

BYE! STAY TUNE FOR MORE!

The pain that never hides, a reflection from inside.

Oh god, i just spent an hour plus trying to change the blog template.White is just a little tad too boring so, may the yellow zap up your life! Don't you think yellow is so vibrant???????? ~.~

Well, the main point of me blogging is obviously trying to do the days challenge again so i should wait no further!! Today's topic is........... wait i forgot LOL, i go check. :X

ITS, "3 Words You Can't Go A Day Without!!!"

LOL, i literally forgot what's the topic about, don't judge!

So without further ado, let's welcome the 3 holy words that i used everyday!!!  

Fuck 

Although i always tried my best to prevent myself from using vulgarities, but i always ended up letting my mouth get the best out of me. :$ It will simply just come out from my mouth without me knowing. Aiya, i think alot people are always suffering from this. It's a misfortune. :( Btw, please don't get misunderstood, the fuck in my dictionary does not have any meaning, it's just a supportive word to make my sentence complete. Some examples are "Fuck lah, damn hot sia." and "Stay the fuck calm.". You see, i don't take fuck as an offensive word. :$

Hungry

I'm hungry. Are you hungry? I'm not hungry. LOL. I'm always hungry so it's a hint for me to use on my parents to buy some food back. :$ Not much to explain but the main point is that i'm always hungry and i'm hungry now. I've just used it 6 times.

Sigh, i think this entry very boring.... and i know this was in your mind when you was reading through my first and second point. RIGHT!!!??

SORRY :( I think i'm a bad blogger 

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FRET NOT

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Cuz i'm trying my very best to improve on blogging and perhaps after some time,

MY ENTRIES WOULD NOT BE AS POOR AS THIS.

You gotta give me some time, aye!

OKAY BACK TO POINT, LAST ONE

Wait

I think this is why i'm always procrastinating. I like to take forever to get something done. REGARDLESS OF WHAT IT IS. Eating, studying, bathing, typing, talking, running @#$%^&* many many more and the list will go all the way to Malaysia if i would to list it all out. Sigh, this explains the fuckedupness in me.

I'm done! I will try to change so don't judge me! :(  I'm also a typical teenager out there~ Stay tune for my next post yeah! Till then! :D

Is there clarity in this insanity?

Hello. If you were expecting to see the days challenge then i'm sorry to say YES, YOU WILL BE SEEING THE DAYS CHALLENGE! I'm sorry if you think i'm lame and that sentence was utter pointless. :( I'm just lazy to make a picture so i will just start! It's Day 7 already! 3 more to go after this. 

The topic for today's challenge is *drum roll~* FOUR MEMORIES! :( Why am i so retardy.....

I have alot of memories some memorable and some that i totally detest a whole lot. Here are some of those that will always be part of me.

CP.

If you were wondering what's a CP, it's basically a short cut for the term Carpark. LOL, yeah it is. So you must be wondering what kind memory will there be in a carpark right? Let me tell you this, it contains lots of unforgettable memories there. I still rememeber when i was in lower secondary, my clique and i will go to the multi storey carpark near my school for a game of catching or two. Fyi, it's really very lame but it was totally worth it. That game makes our clique for we are today. Look at both Darrens, how fit are they now. I also remember Mathan, he was really fat :x but ever since he played that game, he actually became thinner and even become fitter. I joined later than them and escaped from lots of trouble though, but nevertheless it was really very exciting and i will never forget for times to come. We have since stopped going there.......

Primary 6.

I guess everyone somehow missed those days where you hang out with your primary school buddies after school or remedials yeah? I'm very fortunate to had met great people when i was in my primary school. Although we had somehow stopped contacting already, but i'll always remember those precious times we met together. Spending our weekends in school from morning to afternoon for remedials and fooling around in class. So much to recall, so much so that i can't remember already. :X LOL! :$

Training for Sports Day.

After losing dramtically last year, my team were so determined to get the right results again. We went to the stadium at least once a week like months before the event. Although we can be really lazy and stuffs, we never failed to do what we were supposed to do, to train. Ever since the first practice, we didn't look back and the rest were history. :)

Tanjung Piai

Just ignore our fuckedup face (okay maybe mine) and focus on the main point will you!

It was a great camp as it was my first overseas trip with my class and it's also the time where we actually bonded. It was also the last camp where 2N2'09 are together as one. I still remember how disgusting the toilets were and we had to rushed to bathe whenever the trainers released us. Imagine 70+ people fighting for 2 cubicles to bathe? Haha, many things were done there although i was half blind cuz i lost my specs on the first day of the trip. -.-

So these are the 4 i can think of right now! It wasn't interesting but hope you are able to read till at least this sentence! :) I'm thinking of blogging something more special in the future so any ideas? :) Stay tune for Day 8! Till then!

While we are postponing, life speeds by.

Watching time gone by day by day, school is going to start in a week time. I wonder how much am i prepared for school... Day 6 of my 10 days challenge, here is it.

5 thing i can't live without.

1 - Laptop.
I'm such a computer freak, i gotta go online everyday regardless rain or shine. It basically fufill all my daily needs, social network, movies, dramas, songs etcetc. It's such a essential item in my life. It's a must.

2 - Macdonalds.
It's my favourite food and it'll always be as long as Double McSpicy doesn't get out of their menu. Omg, speaking of chicken makes me so hungry right now.

3 - Football.
It's my passion, it's my life. 'Some people believe football is a matter of life and death, I am very disappointed with that attitude. I can assure you it is much, much more important than that.' This is so strong. Football is an important sport to any countries. Just look at Singapore, it might not be a world class team but how many people here loves watching soccer? Remember the rival we had with Malaysia? 50000 people at the stadium rooting for our country? It's a sport that brings people together, regardless of any race. I love football, always will, always were.

4 - Music.
Imagine a world without music. How plain and boring it'll be? Music can somehow defines our emotions and in times of need, it could also cheer us up. Music is strong. Everything is better when music is up and running.

5 - Family.
Although i don't share a super close relationship with my parents, but i know they have been very supportive towards me. We might argue or disagree from time to time, but blood is thicker than water, we're still family at the end of the day. Same goes to my sister. I love my family and it is my pillar of strength.


6 - Handphones.
Yeah, i might not pick up your calls :$ but i'm sure i'll reply texts if you were to send me any~ A platform to contact me therefore one of the things i can't live without. :)

Sorry for all the delays to my challenge, hopefully my readers are still reading my blog. I always have the feeling that i don't have any readers and it totally diminish my urge to blog. Hopefully i have some, loyal ones. :) Stay tune for Day 7! :)

Disappear now when i'm dreaming of your face.

Hey people! It has been a long time since i last updated thus stopped doing those days challenge abruptly. So if you've been wondering what i've been doing, it's just that i'm busy watching football all day long so i hope you could pardon me for it? :$ Hehehe, fret not people, i'll be continuing this. It's not-quite-the-day5 challenge today, so here we go!!

Currently!
1 - Here Without You - 3 Doors Down (Boyce Avenue Cover)
If you're curious, this is my blog song. :$ So Boyce Avenue is really a talent, love his smoothing voice! It's a beautiful song sung by a beautiful vocalist. The original was great too, just that i prefer Boyce Avenue rendition of this song~

2 - Electric Shock - f(x)
Hi, i love to listen to Kpop, i don't understand those people that loves to judge those poor Koreans whom are trying their best effort to contribute to the world by producing good music. Their talent, dedication and determination are second to none yet so many still criticize them for being fake, plastic surgery, auto-tune. Wtf? How much you know about them? If they really were to go for plastic surgery, it's all because of all those judgemental people like you whom loves to judge. And furthermore, what makes you think they are fake? Just because they look better than you? LOL. OKAY FUCK OUT OF TOPIC. This song is so addictive, those vibes that the song gives out are ~.~ LUNAAA~

3 -  Monster - Big Bang
Hey~~~ I'm not finish, even if they go for plastic surgery, they still produce good music so why complain? Not like their songs are repeating Baby for a thousand times and get 750 millions views. LOL, i know that guy is producing good music now too, so~  i was just giving an example. Fuck la. Tbh, i don't know why i'm addicted to it but i just have to play it whenever i'm listening to music.

4 - 不具名的悲伤 - 罗志祥 (Anonymous Sadness - Show Luo)
LOL, how can i not be addicted to my idol's song. :$ I always enjoy his ballads, no idea why. You guys should listen to it!!!

5 - Pororo Theme Song
YA PORORO DA! OMG, it's like cute x18765434567. It's playing on repeat whenever i'm using my lappy and my message tone is also this!! Hahaha, kyeopta!!


6 - Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day
It's an old song but good song never gets old. LOL, for some reason the song has got no climax but somehow it's nice and addictive. Perhaps you could give it a try?

I'm done! So this is currently the songs that i'm addicted to. Not all-time! Haha, yeah so don't judge! Stay tune for Day 6! :))

The innocent can never last.

Gonna turn in right after this post so gonna rush through it! I think i will struggle with this topic cuz i think i don't really have alot of fears or whatsoever. Day 4, 7 fears/phobias here we go!

1 - Snakes. I  have a phobia for snakes, 100% absolute fact. I think it's super disgusting especially those scales and those pea-sized eyes. Oh god, it's really really very disgusting.

2 - Haircut. I really scared to go for a haircut although i would always cut my hair once i feel my hair is out of shape. But the sad truth is that, whenever i go to a salon or barber, i'll feel as if i'm going into a lion den cuz i'm so scared my hair will be ruin or something. :$

3 - Hot weather. I just can't stand hot weather, just like anyone else.

 God damn it, i'm stuck.....

4 - Backstabbers. Nowadays, it's hard to really have a true friend that you really really trust. I don't even know if i have any good friend to be honest. :( I hope i don't have any backstabbers though. Hate this type of hyprocrite son of a bitch that put up a facade infront of you and then bitch about you when you're not around. They are cunning.

5 - Ghost. I don't really know if i'm really afraid of it but let me tell you, i'm already having goosebumps typing this out! Haha, perhaps i am, aiya can't blame me right!? I'm all alone typing this at 3.30am! So yeah, i'm afraid it will possess, haunt me or something. But i think if you don't interfere with them, they won't do anything to you, so yah~ LOL~

6 - Furry stuffs. LOL, i'm not scared of some crappy stuff toy but i am towards like hmm, cats or dogs. LOL, i think those furs around them are disgusting thus i'm afraid.:( I remember once, i went to my friend house and there was a dog and when the moment i stepped in, it wanted to lick me or smth and fuck it, i ran and the dog chased me down the whole house. LOL, but thanks to my holy fast speed, the dog gave up and just stared at me and i was like ~.~. I looked gay here.

7 - To go army. It's not because i'm afraid of the tough training neither am i scared of leaving my home. IT'S JUST BECAUSE if i would to enlist into army, i will have to shave my hair off. LOL! It will be such a huge blow to someone who is so vain. <- (Day 4 of the challenge, mentioned vain 4 times.) I know hair will grow back, don't scold me. :(

I'm done and this is by far the worse i ever did. I'm trying so hard to think of any fears. Sigh, it's crappy but hopefully you will enjoy in one way or another. Tmr challenge will be, "Six songs that you're addicted to." 5th day, stay tuned! Oh yeah, don't judge!

To be right where you are.

When i started off doing this challenge, i never thought i would continue after the first day but look where i am now! It's the 3rd day!! HEEYAA, 8 things that annoys me.. hmm.

1 - Gloryhunters. I swear nothing is more disgusting than a gloryhunter, i hate plastic fans more than anything else. If you support a team, at least make an effort to know your team! Don't be like ahh yeah Euros are coming out, i'm supporting Brazil! -.- And please don't support teams just for the sake of it. Thanks, omfg only the first point and i feel so annoyed already!

2 - Over usage of dialect on the internet. Okay, maybe it's just my own problem but i just feel annoy when i encounter such things. Swee bo? I think you damn ehsai sia, but i bochup. Jitao bang wall and die sua. LOL, WTF, i've no idea what did i just typed.

3 - Mathematics. It has always been an annoying thing to me, always will, always were. Fuck all algebras, equations, axis, angles, tangent, right angle, triangle. WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT FROM ME.

4 - Picking up phone calls. Maybe it's just me but damn, i really don't like to pick up calls. Perhaps you could send a text and i'll reply you, okie? Text me, maybe?

5 - Melvin lovesyouforeverandeverandeverandever. Holy shit! Why can't you just use your real name!!!? It's so freaking irritating. Okay sorry, just my opinion. :(

6 - When a huge gust of wind makes my hair messed up. I'm vain. Don't know must emphasize how many times. :$

7 - Brainwasher. They go around telling people whats in their mind and then expect them to follow his/her thoughts. They could pretty much brainwash almost everything, from your your mindset to your choices. Some even brainwash others to tarnish your reputations. Some people are like that. They think that own the world.

8 - Petty people. I don't hate but feel just a little annoyed when people just get all so worked up and pissed over a trival matter. It's like hey come on, what's wrong!? Whether the gentleman is capable or not, he is loved all the same; conversely the petty man is loathed all the same. True?

Haha, done. This is by far the hardest challenge i did. Maybe it's due to fact that i'm so kind and nothing really annoys me to the point that i feel pissed. Perhaps only the gloryhunters factor really has taken it's toil as it's so so so irritating! So that should be that, stay tune for the 4th day challenge which is, "Seven fears/phobias."